unwords, unthoughts, unreason, unrhyme & unpoetry
caterpillars, cocoons & butterfliesArchive for Splinters (2008)
Alone
Out of sight,
Out of mind
Heart is rotten
Eyes are blind
Touch her here
Touch her there
Passion broken
You are unfair.
I’m broken
And nobody
Wants to
Fix me
No matter
How much
I plead
And beg.
A toy past
Novelty
Left alone
To waste
And rot
Collecting
Dust
On the
Shelf.
Forgotten
Unloved
Ridiculed
Beaten.
I just never
Thought
My life
Would be like
This.
Alone, again,
No one to
Hold or
Kiss.
No-one to
Remember
I am here
As I pass
Another
Year.
No romantic dinner
Tender kiss
Or flourishing
Bouquet
No romantic evenings,
Or strolls
In the park
No holding hands
Or adventures
In cars
No-one to wipe
Away my
Sorrowful
Tears
No-one to be with
Controlling my
Fears.
Just another
Lonesome
Sad
Quiet
Day
No-one
To tell me
It’s going to be
Okay.
Doll
Lost little girl
Pretending to be
All grown-up
Wearing make-up
Switching hips
Caving in
Inside.
Stilettos
Instead of
Flip flops
Tick tock
Down the road.
Raging
Smoking
Inhaling
Fake blush
Crimson red
Eyes towering
Overhead.
French synthetic
Polish
Acrylic make-believe
Perpetuating
Perfection
Thick fluid
Fluttering lashes
Pretend affection.
Open your
Kohl eyes
Beauty is not
Skin deep
That’s why he
Will love you
Even when you
Sleep.
Circles of Misfortune
Lost souls
Wandering beneath
Stark white noise
Ribbons of time,
Breakdown ensues
Foregoing dreams
Sullied purity
Blurred, mushed hope
Fading into the harsh
Stench of reality,
Black satin rose.
Sickened negatives,
Displaced emotion.
Twin hearts secluded,
Now and then
Circles of misfortune
Misconceptual lust
Trapped in a soothing
Effortless kiss
Paralysing time
In the palm of my hand
Frozen snowflake, thawing,
Melting into
A dry framework
Of complex thought
Fateless disposition
Weightless inhibition
Pretend proposition
Lost souls
Wandering beneath
Lonely skies.
Wedding Vows
You take bites out of my soul,
Ripped skin bearing scars
From Satan’s hysterics
Laughing at me.
Pleasure,
Insatiable treasure.
You snatch shadows from my mind,
Unforgotten memories and pain.
Angels from heaven
Hitting me with rocks,
And stones.
Breaking my bones.
You twist the innocent and truth.
Silent lies lurking preventing hurt.
Glimmer of hope,
Shines like gold,
And then,
Shrinks away again.
You blind and blacken my eyes
With not nearly enough sleep,
Too tired to cry,
Wasting my tears.
Terms and conditions
Apply.
I am here. Again.
I am here
Again
With my
Broken heart
And nothing
To do
I am here
Again
Raging anger
Listless emotions
No one to
Hear
Or understand
I am here
Again
Singing
Discontented
Syllables
To a song
No-one will
Hear
Or understand
I am here
Again
Will it all
Just ever
Disappear?
Restraining Order
Satan slams the door
As he knocks me unconscious
Against the wall
I come to
Disoriented
Not sure what’s going on
I stop eating carpet
Tasting red licks
Inside cut cheeks
The door slams
My vision is blurred
Struggling
Wheezing
Unbreathing
The door slams
Goosepimples hurt
Camouflaging
Bruises
The door slams
Infra-red screaming
999 dial tone
- Upside down
At least my humour
Is still in tact.
Submission
Rushes of
Introspection
Edge of prayer
Prostrating
Forlorn
Hopeless
Tears
I-only-ever-made-one-wish-I-wished-for-you.
Trample on my broken heart
Crush the velvet of my soul,
Rip the silken ribbons
Frayed threads of gold.
Interlacing sequins,
Faded mirrors
To the world,
Missing true
Blue diamonds
Left out in the cold.
Forget every promise,
Cold palms break the ice.
Every Arabic word,
Maggots and woodlice.
Rotten heart of apples
Used to be fresh
To the core.
I am the result:
You are the cause.
I have a tendency to get caught up and lost in the world, still trying to discover what my gift is and how to use it. I write either when I'm deliriously happy (right now it's magic and butterflies though that is changing on a daily basis) or depressingly upset, so it's one extreme or the other, never a happy balance or medium. I love imagery and try and capture what I see in my mind's eye but sometimes I just don't have the words...I hope you enjoy reading, please tell me what you think!
