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Patience, or Not

You hurt me with

Your stony silence,

Fertile imagination

Creates stories

From nothing.

 

Escape me this world

Else I may lose my mind

Shaking from the cold

Inside.

 

Wait me this boy

Impatience grows

Cruel, sullen, slow

Hesitation creeps

Outside.

 

Swing both ways,

Living proof of a livid

Angel in disguise.

Rabbit Hole

Speeding, accelerating into oblivion,

I scream, and in the darkness

My voice is suffocating

And I can’t breathe,

The air is stifling

And the ferocious warmth

Dries my eyes,

Lids close tight shut.

 

He hollers for me after dusk,

Menacing, stock of mean tenderness,

Leans back and gives me control,

Closing his eyes, imagining.

Gripping me with vulnerability

And his concept of love

Which leaves me paralysed

And blind.

  

He smiles and I drown in sorrow

For all of the memories. 

 

He promises to straighten out.

Persuasion for moving moments.

He promises heaven,

But delivers me daily hell.

He is not mine to suffer

The nightmares alone.

Wonder if he knows, now

My heart beats for only me.

 

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He catches me on Mondays

Like a star, temporary and constant.

A new diamond, a new sky

Like a butterfly, trapped and free,

Flitting between pollen types

And numb telephone signals.

Hiding behind giant chairs,

Typing his speak to me. 

 

He smiles and I drown in his eyes.

When he blinks, I breathe. 

 

Specks of introspection,

Keeps his thoughts to himself.

Setting out boundaries

We want to break,

Keeping a distance

That keeps us apart.

In love with a boy,

Twenty metres away. 

 

Lids, gently open.

Tears, wet my eyes.

And the succumbing heat

Brings me peace,

I’m breathing,

My voice is speaking,

Speeding, accelerating

Into the first day of,

  

The rest of my life.

Last Night

You’re a star.

Like a comet or one that stays in the sky forever?

One that stays in the sky forever?

It was a trick question;

Shooting star; fleeting; temporary;

Catch her like a butterfly.

Forever star; unobtainable, far;

Shines bright against cobalt clouds;

That makes for the sparkle.

Is this why women are complicated?

You had a question for me when we were in the car,

But then as usual you decided not to share.

True as my words, I remember the question,

But true to form, I won’t ask the question.  

I can’t share with you.

Why are you not allowed to share?

I don’t remember there being any rules?

Rules are magic and appear only for you, apparently.

Secrets, secrets, secrets, frustrating.

Tease!  What sweet would I get in return for a secret?

My lips are sealed.

Such a picture of innocence.

I’ll tell you in maybe ten hundred days.

Patience of a saint?

Please, please, pretty please?

You’ve proved me right by your wrongs

So many times, I know it’s not coming,

So there is no need for you to pretend.

 If your words, were ever

An incentive to prove you wrong…

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The rules were not broken,

No need to forgive you,

There’s nothing to forgive.

And that to-do list will stay

In the back of my mind.

It’s getting serious; the deal is

We aren’t supposed to discuss things

That are overtly flirtatious or suggestive;

That could lead to the aforementioned developments.

It is no longer permitted on the agenda.

I won’t be discussing it with anyone,

It’s one for me, and me only.

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I think we both know which option I was referring to Miss A.

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The right thing is always the hardest thing,

Often the opposite of what you want.

Nothing is ever simple.

 

She’s inside his head,

She’s got inside his head.

GT

Seeing as I promised,

Heart of an imperfect angel,

There is some definite overlap

Not actually sure why

I’m telling you all this?

…but a promise is a promise!

Melt in your mouth type.

Not Even An Angel

 

Devil invites me inside

His turquoise chocolate house

Guides me by the hand

And lays me down without

A blink, he smiles sweetly

I’m afraid but I trust him

Completely

Naively

 

He smells my satsuma skin

Tucking my hair behind my ear

Holding me close against him

Encouraging me to

Whisper, still smiling

On coffee leather chairs

Smooth velvet skin

Reveals

 

Devil runs his warm hands

Down my nervous naked spine

Shiver in my bones

Conscious of being shy

But I melt away

Baring my awkward body

Defenceless

Trusting

 

He breathes me inside of him

Intuition breaks my mood

There is something

Just not quite right

Hesitate

Can’t work it out

Pre-meditated

Attack

 

Devil tries to take my mind

Off the noise that startled

Me from the other side

It’s nothing

Just you and me

You

And

Me

 

Except intuition knows

I’m facing an ordeal

Never repeated to a human soul

Words do not escape

Do not form on my tongue

To even express

Broken

butterflies

 

I see two pairs of eyes

And then bodies bolt out

Of the strawberry jam door

Through my naked tears

Falling on to my naked

Trembling skin

I scream at the devil

I runaway

 

I gather my scattered

Shattered self

I’m crying

I’m screaming

I’m cursing

Cold

Black

Murder

 

Not even an angel

Can take that once

Sweet like chocolate

Cold stone heart

Of menacing

Violating

Humiliation

Away.

Wedding Vows

 

You take bites out of my soul,

Ripped skin bearing scars

From Satan’s hysterics

Laughing at me.

 

Pleasure,

Insatiable treasure.

 

You snatch shadows from my mind,

Unforgotten memories and pain.

Angels from heaven

Hitting me with rocks,

 

And stones.

Breaking my bones.

 

You twist the innocent and truth.

Silent lies lurking preventing hurt.

Glimmer of hope,

Shines like gold,

 

And then,

Shrinks away again.

 

You blind and blacken my eyes

With not nearly enough sleep,

Too tired to cry,

Wasting my tears.

 

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Blessing

If dreams were real, and words were true
We’d be living in heaven without being blue.
If promises made, were never broken,
A bad word about you would never be spoken.

Let blessings guide you and light up your way
May this angel protect you and your heart today.
Make a solemn wish, keep to mending wrongs,
And truth in you, will grow to be strong.

Let faith take you by the hand, and lead you to riches
And the angels will shower you with platinum kisses
Let the snowflakes freeze over the icy past,
And melt away any curses cast.

Bless this day, bless your soul
Take sin from you heart and replace it with gold
Make the right decisions, take madness from you mind
Serenity will discourage you from being cruel to be kind

Make a wish, smile for happiness and joy
And let everyone see
The man is no longer a boy.