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Solitude
Sometimes I have to travel miles
to lock myself off from the world
sometimes I can absentify
my thoughts in a second
but if the same thoughts return
then they weren’t really forgotten
and even if I travel to the ends of the earth
the same recurring thoughts
still persist, am I trapped in a world
where I am my own limitation?
spontaneous and passionate
instead listless and dull
no more glitter and gold
just bland black emptiness
boundaries are there to be crossed
- self-made boundaries are torturous
self doubt and paranoia, insomnia
and then too much sleep without dreams
when will my tired eyes surrender?
Deja-V
Silhouettes dissected -
clinical cuts
like diamond facets.
Clean, cold lines.
Devoid of heart -
time frames distorted
moments lie naked.
Secrets scored and defined.
Sweet ray of light.
Anticipation
At the edge of madness
I stand by
the corrupting flames of light
burning to the ground
what used to be right.
Encoded wireless messages
I stand by
unrecorded shallow whispers
of words untold and deep
Please see me.
Falling into vulnerability
I stand by
forehead leaning into
the arch of my neck.
What next?
LBC
Love is meaningless to the person who is loving someone else
A once upon a time touch no longer makes the soul melt
Crushed hearts, take time to heal
A smile might never again be real
Disguising words, lies for so long
Didn’t you ever think that what you were doing was so wrong?
Anguish and anger, not enough words to explain
You are the one who promised it was not a game
But you said the same lines and words to la chien rochelle
Everything you told me, now to her you tell
Secret rendezvous, nights stayed out
You say you never really loved her?
About.
Poison Ivy
Time waits for no-one
Everyday it passes me by
Self doubting thoughts and actions
And the tears that I cry
Wake up and smell the coffee
“You’ll only end up alone”
I don’t know why I’m here
Switching off my phone.
Can’t wait anymore, I’m exhausted
Every word is a lie
Poison in my heart
And more tears to cry.
Wish you would just leave
You are draining me
A blank space located
Where – I – used to be.
I remember the beginning
You used to be my sky
No longer enough
To prevent my tears crying.
Your promises are broken
As soon as you verbalise intent
I don’t know why you try
It doesn’t make any sense.
Months turn into years
Trapped every time
Patience is a virtue
But not when my life isn’t mine
Tears blot the carbon
Etched in dead trees
Time will rot the senses
You lost me.
Blessing
If dreams were real, and words were true
We’d be living in heaven without being blue.
If promises made, were never broken,
A bad word about you would never be spoken.
Let blessings guide you and light up your way
May this angel protect you and your heart today.
Make a solemn wish, keep to mending wrongs,
And truth in you, will grow to be strong.
Let faith take you by the hand, and lead you to riches
And the angels will shower you with platinum kisses
Let the snowflakes freeze over the icy past,
And melt away any curses cast.
Bless this day, bless your soul
Take sin from you heart and replace it with gold
Make the right decisions, take madness from you mind
Serenity will discourage you from being cruel to be kind
Make a wish, smile for happiness and joy
And let everyone see
The man is no longer a boy.
Lovebite
shivers
down
spines
butterflies
sweeping
caresses
across
lusting skin
cupping my
face in your
hands
kissing
tenderly
gently here
there
lips like
tasting
nectarine
plum
mango
eating into
soft flesh
of my neck
sumptuous
love
in
crimson
coloured
orange
purple
yellow
hearts.
Voice/male
Crushed petals
Scent of deceit
Written in your skin
Gestures to relieve
Wasting oxygen
Too late to speak.
Wet eyelashes
Time to breathe
Falling in deaf ears
Dying underneath
Pretend smiles
Distant grief.
Broken vessels
Octaves higher
Dull thud of pain
Fury and hellfire
Lost tempers
My angel liar.
Stitching flesh
Ring of hope
Serial daydreamer
Killing minds to cope
Impatient impurities
Regular stageshow.
Edge of Despair
Knots of anger
mismanagement:
Coiled; interactive;
violent; intertwined.
Sanctity of space:
Tainted; limited;
impure; redefined.
Desperation rings out,
Fifty songs of sin.
Deleting my soul
In a second,
On a whim.
Intermittent neon.
Mascara pillow
Face down.
Gagging the lyrics,
In easy silence.
Fifty times over,
Robotic words
Echo discontinuity.
Teary fingerprints:
Meltdown;
Breakdown.
Callous, void nights.
Undeterminable rushes
Of introspection;
Massacred thoughts
Condensed into shreds.
Split, spliced
Monosyllables
Representing
Density of life.
Exploding Star
Immersed in the thrill of a heartbeat
Touching the souls of the betrothed
Living in sin of temptation
Growing up, growing old.
Surpassing milestones and memories
Dreams of the sky disappear
Committing too many felonies
Insufficient submission and fear.
Your eyes sparkled, sullenly
Moments of love too few
If my heart was made of money
Would you take that too?
Beyond capable understanding
So far that you can’t see the line
Regret doesn’t comfort the landing
Too many times you haven’t been mine.
Horizon fills with grey stripes of cirrus
Stormy teacup circles commence within
The flowers of honesty, faith and trust
Disintegrate love in the beginning.
I have a tendency to get caught up and lost in the world, still trying to discover what my gift is and how to use it. I write either when I'm deliriously happy (right now it's magic and butterflies though that is changing on a daily basis) or depressingly upset, so it's one extreme or the other, never a happy balance or medium. I love imagery and try and capture what I see in my mind's eye but sometimes I just don't have the words...I hope you enjoy reading, please tell me what you think!
