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caterpillars, cocoons & butterfliesArchive for hurt
Temper
Disembodied
State of mind,
Over my head,
Just too blind
To see through
You.
I am stunned,
So misaligned,
The mood I’m in
I couldn’t care,
You could tell me
She was so rare,
So precious, so
Virtuous and
Perfect,
I would tell you
Then go back there
The mood I’m in
His Baby Zara
Flew down the motorway
Eight o’clock at night
Just to spend fifteen
Minutes with you
Because it felt right.
Missed you that much
Spent so many hours
On the phone
Longing just to touch you
In moments alone.
I fell for you so hard
I do not even know how
You clenched my heart
And stole my smile
But I’m moving on now.
Hide and Seek
Butterflies in my chest
And my heart,
Not palpitations.
A connection,
Distances apart.
You make me smile,
In the same breath
You kill my dreams,
Relegating my life
To make-believe.
Impatient waiting
Games, you play
Me for a fool,
Like a child lost
In a maze.
Ten minutes,
Twenty minutes,
Half an hour.
An hour.
It’s not even funny.
You’d be there
In a millisecond
If I was going to
Make you some
Money.
Girlfriend
Now she knows
You’re married
And still she stays,
What a joke.
I pity your wife
And girlfriend,
Sealed behind
A screen of
smoke.
Spending ‘p’
X amount of grands
A day.
Chauffeuring
Bentleys,
As if I don’t know,
I’m not begging
You to
Stay.
I’m breaking
Free from you
I’ve heard, I know
Your lies,
Twisted words,
I’m stronger
than you
And your
Life.
Stupidity,
Blindness,
Has reigned
Too long.
Five years
Too soon,
Too late.
Love turned
To hate.
Acupuncture
Scribbled post it notes
Under the eyes
Of the unwatching,
Inaccessible digits,
Disdained expressions,
Hopelessness in your voice,
Smiling through pain.
Your words calm me,
Pierce my brain
Like needles,
Tempted to believe
In your essence.
Nocternal phonecalls
Under the ears
Of the unhearing.
Craving his closeness
And grinning face
In the light
Of his eyes
Before me.
He tells me secrets
About you and that
You were perpetuating
Yet another lie.
Anguish accumulates
You are not
Worth these tears
I cry.
You are not
Worth these tears
I cry.
Hung up, Cut off
You breathe all too suddenly,
Playing under covers.
Smiling.
Dead letter day, ten days too late
She will return to you,
Lost in fate.
Distorted innocence, waiting
For the misconception,
Of perfection.
You are missing in the rain
Bear with me, words
In the wind.
Point of No Return
To the point of no return
I invest myself in you
Will the reward be just
Enough for both us two?
Minds and beliefs
Separated, segregated
Can’t they combine?
Nothing has even happened
Blind leading the blind.
Offering me chocolate caramel
You kill me with sweet
And sour words
All I want is happiness
Don’t I deserve some kind?
Dream after dream
A sliced peace of mind.
Brown white speckles
Dimples and freckles
Your tapered needs
Hold more importance
Than the peace of my sleep.
Rebound
The sky falls down on me
As the asphyxiation
Suffocates my sense of
Self
Less is a quality
I deliver in
Equal measures
To that of
Commit
Meant that I would
No longer be alone
But I’m running scared
Facing facts
That I cannot
Be tied
Drown
In the eyes
of the one
I will lose
Myself to the
Wind
If I could.
I have a tendency to get caught up and lost in the world, still trying to discover what my gift is and how to use it. I write either when I'm deliriously happy (right now it's magic and butterflies though that is changing on a daily basis) or depressingly upset, so it's one extreme or the other, never a happy balance or medium. I love imagery and try and capture what I see in my mind's eye but sometimes I just don't have the words...I hope you enjoy reading, please tell me what you think!
