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Stupid Girl

He’s such a darling sweetheart

Of course he will buy you presents

He always comes ready with a

Bunch of flowers and an innocent kiss

Gives me spending money

For my holiday in Paris.

Spends money, buys me

Countless gifts, because

I am his.

 

Stupid girl.

You are refusing him satisfaction

In lust, so he presents you with

Objects of his affection

As substitution

– for the tool he is –

For that which he wishes

To ravish you

With.

 

He’s played innocent and guilty,

Blinded lucky number seven,

To my knowledge – he likes the exclusive.

Burns his wrist to prove his love

God only knows his next trick.

Blue diamonds in

Your hand, you accept.

And then he is

Elusive.

 

Stupid girl.

You will believe him, his charm,

Fall into his smile and drown

In his hands when he touches your

Cheek.  Poppy-eyed in the millions

Of happy wishful pipe-dreams.

Flipside, realside, hand to mouth

Pennies, living like a dog.

Hungry.

 

Convoluted, misinformed,

Betrayed betrothals already exist.

Counterfeit promises and explanations

You would repulse in shock,

He won’t give up until you give in

He will twist your mind and persist.

But if only you knew his

Heart of rot, if only you could

 Resist.

 

Self Harm

Carving her name

Into your arm,

The blood weeps from

Your skin,

Showing her that

She is your world

And without her

You are sin.

 

Vandalise your nape

With pretend names

Like I’m stupid.

Foolish.

Tattoo her name in

Arabic on your clean

Dark skin, light heart

Scarred for life

In octopus ink.

 

Concentric circles

Burn your wrist,

Forgetting your chest.

Can’t let the fairer

Leave, prove your love

Blinding her mind,

Because actions speak

Louder than words.

Note 14

She rings you in the middle of the night
For no apparent reason other than she’s mad
She’s angry with you because you make her so sad
Tears hiding behind her eyes
And her lies
Why have you got such a hold on her?
She’s just some girl
I am your wife, I am supposed to be your world.

She texts you Good morning darling hope you’re ok
You pretend to dismiss her but with a knowing smile
Waiting for me to leave before her number you dial
In her house so many nights you stayed
You lied for days
Why has she got such a hold on you?
She’s just some girl
You are my husband, I am supposed to be your world.

She cried to sleep when you were sleeping around
But who is she for her heart to hurt and break
Why would she shout that you’re such a snake
Still keeping your secrets without breathing a word
Both your lies
Why have you got such a hold on each other?
She’s just some girl
We are married, I am supposed to be your world.

Note 4

She gives you her everything but why is she still not enough?
Why did you fall in love with me and stuff?
If I was a mistake, then why didn’t you just leave?
How can I make you in my words believe?
History repeats itself over and over in language and love
Maybe divine intervention helped from above?
I didn’t mean for it to go so far
I didn’t mean to fall into you so hard
But how can you help who you fall in love with?
Believing love was just a myth…
You shouldn’t have tried to break me down
Because now I can’t be without you being around
How was I what you were missing in your life?
When you already had a and a
I’m sorry for the past but it’s there, what can I do?
I didn’t keep it secret from you
You knew from day one, the same as me,
So why do we continue to be?
I wish I could give myself to you how I was before
I wish I knew you two years ago.