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Archive for violence

Reason or Rhyme?

Absence makes the heart grow sicker

Oxygen sucked through dry lips

Cracked, agitated, volatile,

Alone.

 

Angry tempers pursued in a rush

Crystal spiders on windscreens

Scratches, cuts, grazes

 Reparation.

 

Self Harm

Carving her name

Into your arm,

The blood weeps from

Your skin,

Showing her that

She is your world

And without her

You are sin.

 

Vandalise your nape

With pretend names

Like I’m stupid.

Foolish.

Tattoo her name in

Arabic on your clean

Dark skin, light heart

Scarred for life

In octopus ink.

 

Concentric circles

Burn your wrist,

Forgetting your chest.

Can’t let the fairer

Leave, prove your love

Blinding her mind,

Because actions speak

Louder than words.

So you’re burning?

You’re hurting me because it burns you that I went to see him

But what choice did I have when he threatens my life

I asked for your help and you did not respond

What could I do when I didn’t want a public scene

My life is not the business of eyes watching from the mezzanine

And now you are unimpressed (understatement) but what could I do

You of all people should understand how he can be

How he can get

You are witness to the tears and anger and violence

Should his temper blind his body and bind his soul

To a fiery anger of high blood pressure and lack of control

What did you want me to do?

I told him I was scared, I told him it was done

I told him not to touch me, and that it should never have begun

He wouldn’t listen, he’s too strong for my strength

I’m better to just play along.

I still care and love him but where will it take me in the end?

I want to be with you and I want you to be more than my friend

I’m in love with you but I need to get away

How can here the both of us stay?

Too many rumours and falsities how do I know wrong from right

Truth from lies?

You are my saviour but you hide your heart from me

Asking me to figure it out by myself

I have no patience, I am paranoid, I have no trust

You need to spell it out, if needs must

I can never be yours if you don’t fight for your heart

It should always have been you, right from the start.

Happy Birthday

Tender flesh,

Swollen, golf ball

Grey, pink, grey.

Broken knuckles

Happy Birthday.

Delirious rattle,

Snakes my arm

Just for the taste

Of filtered nicotine.

You make me cry,

Hatred.  Shout, scream.

Tangled web,

 Deceited dreams.

Restraining Order

 

Satan slams the door

As he knocks me unconscious

Against the wall

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I come to

Disoriented

Not sure what’s going on

 

I stop eating carpet

Tasting red licks

Inside cut cheeks

 

The door slams

My vision is blurred

 

Struggling

Wheezing

Unbreathing

 

The door slams

Goosepimples hurt

 

Camouflaging

Bruises

 

The door slams

Infra-red screaming

 

999 dial tone

 

- Upside down

At least my humour

 

Is still in tact.

Bruises

You leave me alone to
fall
down
The f.r.o.z.e.n. eyes give me away
Don’t be aNgry and don’t you SHOUT
For our rainclouds today
It’s nobody’s fault
That we seem to do this everyday
Why can’t we be in love
Instead of pushing each other away?

Tell me now it’s over
I can’t cry these tears anymore
Tell me now that it’s over
So I can leave through the door
Tell me now it’s over
Because we can’t go on
Tell me now that it’s over
Bruised with the PRESsure of your heartless tongue

You hurt me so much
Yet I fight through the pain
Why can’t I leave
No, please not again
I try to be strong
Through the misery and blame
Why do you hurt me
Again and again?

Tell me now it’s over
I can’t do with these tears
Tell me now that it’s over
I don’t have the energy for fears
Tell me now it’s over
So I can go on
Tell me now that it’s over
Please let me be gone

In my f.r.o.z.e.n. eyes
Your heart beats s-l-o-w
No longer di$9ui$£d
Are your {thoughts}
In a moment they <show>
You are my (secret)
You have been my =lies=
While you threaten me bitter-sweet
With your SIZE
F-o-R-c-I-n-G open unsmiling lines
C Y N
R I G.