November 11, 2009 at 21:20 · Filed under Gifted (2009) and tagged: life, love, writing, poetry, thought, feeling, violence, sadness, lunatic, madness, unlove, anger, uncertainty, pain, reality
Absence makes the heart grow sicker
Oxygen sucked through dry lips
Cracked, agitated, volatile,
Alone.
Angry tempers pursued in a rush
Crystal spiders on windscreens
Scratches, cuts, grazes
Reparation.
August 2, 2009 at 13:44 · Filed under Gifted (2009) and tagged: bullying, confused, doubt, feeling, lies, life, love, madness, marriage, poetry, reality, sadness, thought, uncertainty, violence, writing
Carving her name
Into your arm,
The blood weeps from
Your skin,
Showing her that
She is your world
And without her
You are sin.
Vandalise your nape
With pretend names
Like I’m stupid.
Foolish.
Tattoo her name in
Arabic on your clean
Dark skin, light heart
Scarred for life
In octopus ink.
Concentric circles
Burn your wrist,
Forgetting your chest.
Can’t let the fairer
Leave, prove your love
Blinding her mind,
Because actions speak
Louder than words.
July 27, 2009 at 23:25 · Filed under Diary of a Luna.............tic and tagged: anger, bullying, confused, feeling, freedom, hope, hurt, insanity, life, love, lunatic, pain, poetry, story, thought, uncertainty, unlove, violence, writing
You’re hurting me because it burns you that I went to see him
But what choice did I have when he threatens my life
I asked for your help and you did not respond
What could I do when I didn’t want a public scene
My life is not the business of eyes watching from the mezzanine
And now you are unimpressed (understatement) but what could I do
You of all people should understand how he can be
How he can get
You are witness to the tears and anger and violence
Should his temper blind his body and bind his soul
To a fiery anger of high blood pressure and lack of control
What did you want me to do?
I told him I was scared, I told him it was done
I told him not to touch me, and that it should never have begun
He wouldn’t listen, he’s too strong for my strength
I’m better to just play along.
I still care and love him but where will it take me in the end?
I want to be with you and I want you to be more than my friend
I’m in love with you but I need to get away
How can here the both of us stay?
Too many rumours and falsities how do I know wrong from right
Truth from lies?
You are my saviour but you hide your heart from me
Asking me to figure it out by myself
I have no patience, I am paranoid, I have no trust
You need to spell it out, if needs must
I can never be yours if you don’t fight for your heart
It should always have been you, right from the start.
July 26, 2009 at 11:08 · Filed under Splinters (2008) and tagged: anger, bullying, depression, feeling, hurt, life, loneliness, love, madness, pain, poetry, reality, sadness, thought, violence, writing
Tender flesh,
Swollen, golf ball
Grey, pink, grey.
Broken knuckles
Happy Birthday.
Delirious rattle,
Snakes my arm
Just for the taste
Of filtered nicotine.
You make me cry,
Hatred. Shout, scream.
Tangled web,
Deceited dreams.
September 17, 2008 at 20:19 · Filed under Splinters (2008) and tagged: poetry, thought, violence, writing
Satan slams the door
As he knocks me unconscious
Against the wall
I come to
Disoriented
Not sure what’s going on
I stop eating carpet
Tasting red licks
Inside cut cheeks
The door slams
My vision is blurred
Struggling
Wheezing
Unbreathing
The door slams
Goosepimples hurt
Camouflaging
Bruises
The door slams
Infra-red screaming
999 dial tone
- Upside down
At least my humour
Is still in tact.
September 13, 2008 at 16:12 · Filed under Broken (1998) and tagged: feeling, life, love, poetry, thought, violence
You leave me alone to
fall
down
The f.r.o.z.e.n. eyes give me away
Don’t be aNgry and don’t you SHOUT
For our rainclouds today
It’s nobody’s fault
That we seem to do this everyday
Why can’t we be in love
Instead of pushing each other away?
Tell me now it’s over
I can’t cry these tears anymore
Tell me now that it’s over
So I can leave through the door
Tell me now it’s over
Because we can’t go on
Tell me now that it’s over
Bruised with the PRESsure of your heartless tongue
You hurt me so much
Yet I fight through the pain
Why can’t I leave
No, please not again
I try to be strong
Through the misery and blame
Why do you hurt me
Again and again?
Tell me now it’s over
I can’t do with these tears
Tell me now that it’s over
I don’t have the energy for fears
Tell me now it’s over
So I can go on
Tell me now that it’s over
Please let me be gone
In my f.r.o.z.e.n. eyes
Your heart beats s-l-o-w
No longer di$9ui$£d
Are your {thoughts}
In a moment they <show>
You are my (secret)
You have been my =lies=
While you threaten me bitter-sweet
With your SIZE
F-o-R-c-I-n-G open unsmiling lines
C Y N
R I G.